Presente da Vida
Questionava-me sobre o rumo de minha vida. Comecei a duvidar também sobre o meu verdadeiro propósito: “Viemos a este mundo para construir uma fortuna material? Levaremos algo disso depois de morrer?”
Eu tinha muito estresse por estudar em uma unversidade muito exigente. Tinha insônia, pois pensava muito sobre meus deveres como estudante e meus planos para o futuro. Estava sempre muito ansiosa por preocupar-me com o que fazer para atingir minhas metas. Consequentemente, minha saúde foi se deteriorando cada vez mais e eu não conseguia ter nem um momento sequer de paz.
Até que recebi o maior presente da minha vida: a meditação de subtração. Com pouco tempo de Meditação, deixei de ter pensamentos desnecessários que atormentavam a minha cabeça e, assim, pude concentrar-me melhor em meus projetos e melhorar meu rendimento escolar. Deixei de pensar sempre no futuro e passei a apreciar as oportunidades que o presente me apresentava. Comecei a valorizar mais as coisas do dia a dia e as pessoas que me rodeavam. Dei-me conta do quão esgoísta eu era por pensar apenas em minhas próprias expectativas de vida. Fui capaz de compreender que fora isto que me fizera distanciar da minha família e dos meus amigos. No entanto, antes, eu não era capaz de perceber isso, pois estava presa dentro de um sonho, do qual não era consciente até que me despertei.
Agora, depois de concluir os níveis da Meditação e ter encontrado minha verdadeira mente, sinto a necessidade de retribuir o norme presente de vida que este método me deu. Quero que muita gente conheça o verdadeiro propósito da vida, aquele que não se encontra nas coisas materiais, nem atrelado a anseios ou expectativas que um espera do mundo; senão aquele de encontrar o caminho para tornar-se uno com o mundo. E, este caminho se encontra na Meditação.
This meditation is? “simple and so powerful”
Before meditation, the life I have lived from the outside looked good. Perhaps to the eyes of the people around me I was happy and confident with family, school and work but I was very worried and always felt pressured within. I always had this need to please everyone and was obsessed about maintaining an image for a good person in front of others. I was always hiding behind my fake smiles and heavy make-up, covering myself up to be perfectly good. Through the meditation I realized that this was all because I was so worried about how the world saw me. I was so worried that I never wore white socks or bright colors because people could then see how dirty my feet were. I felt as if the world was judging me for every little thing about me. My insecurities always overwhelmed me that I was haunted with insomnia.
However, reflecting back at my life, the meditation has really helped me see that I was only living inside this bubble. I was stuck inside a place where I cared only about my self-centered views and comparing myself and wanted to become better with my own standards that I had made to myself. Now that I look back at myself, I was so ridiculous! Riddling myself with so many worries.
I have done the meditation from level 2 in Korea, so I have not yet met people that know of the old me. However, even the people here say that from the time I’ve been here that I look brighter. I see my own change too, my insomnia is gone and I dance around in whatever colored socks, without makeup. When I no longer rely on the opinion of others, I feel much stronger and free. The greatest gift the mediation has allowed me is to allow me to see that the world does not spin around me. I have been living only for myself. For me, the greatest part of this meditation is to see reality, the true world, outside of my bubble.
Be the change you want to see in the world
I think when I was born I chose 100% heart and zero head. I love people and love to help them. That has been part of my life for a long time and even the success in my career comes from it. However there came a point in my life where I sought for ways to help others but drove myself insane because I could not find a way to help the other. Once, one of my family members was suffering from depression. There was nothing that I could do to help and knowing that I couldn’t help that person brought me to an even deeper depression. However, once I started the meditation, I noticed a change in me. I realized that only I can change myself and only I can help myself. It was no longer about my need to help and improve others but it was more about being an example to the people who require the help. I found a way to show true compassion and love to others by helping myself. Everything I do and want to say in a short version is that ‘live by example and be the chance you want to see in the world.’
When I started the meditation in the U.S., my career grew a lot faster. People were nicknaming me as a “superstar” and I was awarded a title as the ‘Top 5 Person’ within my industry with a promotion of an executive VP. Though my career was successful I realized that my job made me so busy. I knew there were a lot of opportunities for me to grow through the meditation and I knew to gain something I needed to sacrifice something. Thus with a bold decision, I chose to go to Korea to invest in myself and it was not just a gold mine, but a diamond mine. I can see that most people who want to try the meditation are just so busy with their lives, but I wish they take a moment to invest in themselves to find what is that they truly want in their lives. For me, I just love who I am inside right now. The language and food was very different in Korea but it is nothing compared to the depth of the gratitude I have for the method because it has changed my whole entire life. Through the past 4 months of meditation in Korea, I was able get over my traumatic experiences in my past, conquer my phobias, and be free from the health conditions that has been following me all life. Many people tell me that I’ve changed a lot and tell me that I look brighter and younger.
At this point, my heart is full of joy and love and gratitude. So with this gratitude that is inside, I want to give this out to other people now, by being an example.
You start to see yourself, the way you are in all aspects of your life
The cool thing about this meditation method is that it has this ability to show you who you are from a much bigger perspective than yourself. It is really hard to see yourself as yourself, so the method has this way of showing yourself from a bigger perspective. Then you get to reflect on yourself on how you actually are and you see things in yourself. And I saw things in myself that I did not realize that I had before the method. I think that is one of the biggest strength of this meditation. Speaking from my own experience, I found it really hard to bring big changes within myself but this method has helped me get rid of my habits and useless negative thoughts.
I am definitely happier now and also just more relaxed. I feel better within myself and that is the best way to define happiness for me. Also, I am more focused. I mean I work with computers and it is important to have patience and really be able to focus throughout the day. I work with my head the whole day, thus it is so important to be able to be relaxed within myself. Not always trying to move, not always thinking about something else, just staying put; and the meditation has definitely helped me with that.
The meditation has also improved me as a husband and father. One problem that I think in many relationships I find is; you have this expectation of the other to give you something the whole time. You want to get something from that person. And I think the meditation has changed that perspective for me and my wife. It is now more about putting in the work yourself without underlying expectations for one another. Also, this meditation has changed the way I see my children. I seem them more as the way they are than I did before as a parent and as a father. There was a certain bias that came with the strong attachment that I had for my children. Getting rid of that, I think you start to see your family in a more realistic way. This is also good for the kids, because they feel that and they feel actually more relaxed around me.
How I met this meditation while I was travelling
Money, career, love, family, health, future, success… these things are what we all care about, am I right? Especially when you are young and you try to make your way into society. Nowadays, you have to be innovative, proactive, experienced, independent, creative, polite, energetic, ambitious, competitive, hard worker,… it’s like the list goes on and on with no end.
So, as I was quite ambitious and perfectionist, the kind who always says “I’ll be fine“ and “I can handle it“, I found myself depressed just before my 25th birthday. The irony of the situation is that I already was into meditation at that time. I was actually pretty aware of how far I was pushing myself, but anyway I decided to ignore all the signs that my body was sending me.
Still, my situation brought me into thinking: how did that happen? I live in a good country, with good working conditions and economy, my family loves me and I have wonderful friends. I have everything to be happy! What’s wrong with me? That’s how I lost it completely. I couldn’t bear the idea that my happiness would only depend on what was going on in my life. It had to be more somewhere, I couldn’t help but thinking that we, human beings, were on the wrong trails for a long time.
So I decided to quit everything and go to some country where I could meditate. The main reason why I got depressed was that I wasn’t able to listen to myself, right? To avoid being into this situation again, I had to discover who I really was. I had no idea how I would do that! Therefore, right after having booked my flight to Cambodia and my accommodation, I booked a meditation course. I contacted a korean meditation center, which I found on Google, and the helper responded immediately to my email, inviting me to an introductory meditation seminar.
Usually, I would think: Yeah, I know how meditation works, you don’t need to introduce it to me. However, if I truly knew everything about it, I wouldn’t be in the middle of South East Asia, running away from my problems, would I? So, I went to the seminar with an open mind. When I arrived to the center and I learned that the method was a way to find your true self, it seemed like I found what I was looking for. That’s how on the very next day, I booked my flight ticket to South Korea.
This meditation is the best gift you can give to yourself. If, like me, you have time and money to spend on a meditation retreat, just go to the main center in Korea and get a full, authentic and mind-blowing experience. Come back to your family with the universe mind. If you cannot do that, then register in your local center and do it according to your occupations. Now, I know for sure that I will never, ever be depressed again, not even slightly, because I was able to throw all the causes of my burden away. Everyone should do this meditation, because everyone deserves to be happy. Just book it already, don’t wait any longer!